Can't remember the last time I had time to sit down and write about my life. Every single time I am here, I apologise for the lack of update and how busy I've been, sigh. Anyway! In the light of our recent first anniversary, I shall finally, finally update some photos from my solemnization. Truth be told, the preparation for my solemnization was really simple, and fuss-free. Wouldn't say it was easy because I was juggling both work and all these plannings at the same time, but it wasn't too much of a problem because the people I dealt with were really really nice and they made things so much easier for me. Though there were a lot of last minute shopping, I am thankful for understanding sponsors who are always ready to accommodate to my schedules to make me look pretty anytime, hahahaha.

As you can tell for the lack of update on my blog and how long this post had been delayed, I didn't actually have any breaks before I got back to work after my solemnization. No kidding, I went back to work immediately the next day. No honeymoon, no wedding leaves, or blah. I had a month-long trip back to Japan last year after graduation though. That counts right? Hahahhaha

So much happened since 30 September 2018. Left my job, AOSD, BTO, hospitals, medications, groggy and more groggies everyday. I honestly can't recall much about what happened from January 2019 ~ July 2019. It feels like I've been in a state of trance for so long I lost track of time. Certainly does feel like it's still March 2019 in my head right now, @@

Okay, let's cut to the chase. We held our solemnization at Raffles Town Club, a regular country club that Kimmy's parents used to frequent back when they were still living in Singapore. We didn't hold a banquet this time, well yeh, no time for that. And then thisthisthis, thatthatthat happened.

I personally would not recommend this club for your solemnization unless you are okay with really simple decorations. Or a missing wedding planner 3/4 of the time. I have had no qualms until the day itself when the lady went missing for the entire morning, and we ended up having to work with the floor manager of that particular location we were using for our event. Like what would he know right? Our decorations were shit, and really sloppy.


Not sure if it was done by the outsourced wedding decorators or by RTC, because what was agreed was that our decorations will be done by the outsourced guys that they partnered with, but the quality difference was so huge??? Okay, not like it's really a problem because it's all the tiny details that you won't really see.... The posters really got me though. I was so pissed when I saw my photos and the posters were just there, which explains why I didn't share the photos until a while later because I was taking my own sweet time photoshopping them out hahahahhaha.

Anyway. We were not given the option to top up additional decors, only got to chose our flowers and ribbons. I also forgot all about it until the day happened and then I realized I've left out so many stuff to make my venue look pretty. So if you wanna host your event here, please question the person in charge and not wait for them to ask you because they will never.

GOWN by Yulia Shu

Got my solemnization gown customized by Yulia Shu. It was an extremely long process of meeting, fitting, meeting again. I initially told her I wanted to have a black dress and she was so thrilled!!


Yulia is extremely professional and open to exploring new creative ideas for the dresses. So if you want to try out crazy hipster gown, cute kimono gown, or fusion ideas of traditional wedding outfits, you can drop her a dm on her Facebook or Instagram!


And here we have.... my fancy fancy galaxy black dress! (She hand painted the galaxy prints!) I actually wanted a long train to go along with it but then decided not to because I am a super clumsy person. I even step on my own long dresses, how am I supposed to walk around with long trains behind me, hurhur.

Also, I'm that dumb ass that eats too much and puts on weight shortly before the event day, so the dress turned out different, sigh. I can barely tuck in my armpit fats, BUT MY DRESS HAS POCKETS, so...



HAIR by Elein @ Artistry Hair Professional

I also got my hair extended at Fareast Plaza before popping over to Artistry Hair Professional to look for Elein to have my hair dyed. Trust me, I legit wanted to go full blonde, but I am thankful I didn't hahahahhahaha. Elein made my long locks looked so much nicer with the highlights! And yes, extend your hair first before dye-ing. So the color difference isn't that huge also, the salon can help you trim your extensions to make it blend in better!


I also did Dyna Straightening treatment before going for my extensions! So my hair roots don't look so QQ. I has curly hair actually, hahahaha.


It's been 4 years with my favorite hair artist, Elein, my hair is so so much healthier now!


NAILS by Flamingo Playground

Also had my nails done last minute with Flamingo Playground. Another amazingly creative bunch who are constantly upgrading their skills and designs. I really love the wide variety of designs they are able to do at Flamingo Playground! I showed them my dress, and they came up with this to pair with it.


I love it?!?! Okay, I am really terrible with nail extensions though. The extension lasted about a month before I got so annoyed because I really cannot function with it on me. I can't type my stuff properly, cannot open my own can drinks, yadah, yadah. It's a lot of getting used to, especially for someone as rough and clumsy as me. So..... I went back to Flamingo Playground and took them off hahahahazxczc.


HAIR &MAKE by Julie Kim

Hair and make-up artist of the day, Julie Kim. Found her randomly on Instagram and I knew I need to have her to grand my big day. Just look at this, need I say more?!


The make up lasted for the entire day without any touch-up. I felt like a K-Pop star, HAHAHA. I was so reluctant to remove it because I don't want to be sent back to reality and face my norm-af-peasant face, huhu. Will deffo be engaging her again if my banquet does happen, hahaha.


BOUQUET by Florals by Benita

Got my pretty bouquet from Florals by Benita. When I say last minute, I really ain't kidding. Of course you shouldn't be doing this too, but I tried my luck and placed my order just 3 days before my solemnization. To my surprise, she actually accepted my order! And I was lucky enough she had enough roses for me!


She also added in a boutonniere for Kimmy, and kept some loose roses for my hair! My stylist was so happy to see those mini red blooms because they were so pretty!



SOLEMNIZER: Dr. Phua Tan Tee

No recommendations, pure google reviews. And he was legit as good as everyone says! Dr. Phua was simply hilarious. I've never seen my family laughed so much before. He is probably my best decision ever, and ever so grateful to have him gracing our solemnization!


He speaks both English and Chinese, which is great because Kimmy's family is Korean, so Dr. Phua translated what he said into English every time he says something in Chinese. My guests were kept occupied and entertained throughout the ceremony, which explains why I don't have any videos. They were so engrossed with what Dr. Phua was saying all the time!!

It's a good thing, because my photographers can capture really nice candids instead of photos of people holding up their phones throughout the ceremony, :3

PHOTOGRAPHERS: Jackie &Huixin

Finally, finally, finally. Photographers for the day! I am more than blessed to have my best friend and her beloved capturing these moments for us.


A lot of my friends rejected being my photog because —friends ma, I don't want to disappoint you, so I won't shoot for your big day. And I honestly didn't want my best friend to be shooting for me also because I want her to be seated like everyone else and watch my dumbass finally getting hitched yknow. But well, there is honestly no one else I can trust in this apart from them if everyone else doesn't want to shoot for me. Trust me when I say I am super anal when it comes to photography/videography. Majoring in this course had me scarred.

Last but not least, the slaves of the day!


I am so ever thankful to have this woman in my life. Called Alicia to help me out for the day because if I want anyone meticulous, it's definitely her. Plus I really don't have many close friends, this is also a closed event for my family only, Lish is my favorite partner-in-crime and Kimmy has a groomsman, how can I not have a bridesmaid!! I think I dropped the bomb on her just a week before my solemnization. Her momma readily allowed her to drop her niece's 滿月 for my solemnization!! So thank you Mama Lish too!


And then there's my favorite legend, Joshy. Thank you for tolerating my bitchy ass for the past 10 years, and thank you for getting siewmai for us hahahaha. Kimmy's best friend, Aaron on the far left, and there's the annoying giant, CJ, on the right. Please keep on taking care of my annoying ass for the next 100 years y'all.

Okay this post is getting way too long. Drop me an email @ veeviisme@live.com or my http://tellonym.me/veeviisme if you have any questions! I'll include all the contact details at the end of the post, so if any of y'all interested can just drop them a PM on their handles!


Location: Raffles Town Club
Photographers: Jackie & Huixin
Solemnizer: Dr. Phua Tan Tee
phua_tan_tee@nea.gov.sg
Gown: Yulia Shu
Hair: Artistry Hair Professional
#03-32, International Plaza, 10 Anson Rd, Singapore 079903, +65 6221 9255
Nail: Flamingo Playground
470 North Bridge Rd, #02-05A Bugis Cube Shopping Mall, Singapore 188735
Hair &Make: Julie Kim
Flowers: Florals by Benita

It's been a while since we got to head out and go for a random ride. Being all locked up at home means I don't get to see the sunlight and life outside much. I've pretty much detached myself from the reality ever since diagnosis. I'll be honest; it actually gets more and more depressing as days pass, especially when job offers come knocking on my door and all I could do is push them away. I'm in no shape to work for production right now, and highly possibly, anymore. I can also feel my brain slowly going into hiatus with the lack of usage, and causing me to evolve into a full time wood block with nothing but hollowness in my head.

So.... With all the time I have in the world right now, I listed down a few things that I want to do, and plan to do. I kid you not, I have literally all the time in the world right now and living the life anyone could ask for. I really am in no position to complain, unless you look at it from the workaholic's point of view, ovells. Anyway I will touch on that once I get all my thoughts sorted out and have something concrete to share. Right now all these plans are really just.... a one liner waiting to be developed. Hey, good start regardless.

Got my ass to Changi Jewel last Saturday after Korean class. Yes, I finally attended my lesson after 2 months! What a waste of money, tsk. I will not be continuing my lessons with Sejong though.. Because my condition is really unstable, I don't know when will I wake up feeling all sluggish and not able to function for the day. So it's really not worth it to spend hundreds just to miss my lessons. More practical to save those up for investments. It was a good change. I got to finally sit around the huge ass fountain and observe humans while letting my mind do its job. Judgey, judgey, judgey. All dem good and bad. Like, why are they here, what are they doing, what could be their career, and what's on their mind kinda. I've gotten more human lately. Ye, a good change.

So me and Kimmy just sat down there for 3 hours, sipping on our coffee, chatting about people, stuff and pretty much every other possible rubbish. I mean if you know me, I'm one to jump from topics to topics at the weirdest point within a conversation. To an extent where I can actually hold 5 different topics at once with you and get all confused with whatever the fuck we were just talking about. I miss this feeling though. Processing thoughts at the speed of light, getting things moving and drafting mental proposals for future plans. I like planning things. And I feel less like a patient, though the body still fails on me occasionally. It's better than moping around in stagnation like a loser drowning in self-pity, blaming the entire world but himself for his stupid but evitable mistakes.

I'm not one that can tolerate stagnation. I gotta keep moving, moving. I do envy people who can keep up the same lifestyle for years and not want to make a change. It's comfortable I would assume. Even if it's a failed investment of a toxic spill where your journey consist of nothing but a quick, yet steady death. How lucky to have a safe zone, regardless. One thing I've learnt lately, you can't save someone who has no intention of saving themselves. A drug addict dies happy overdosed. I can't save myself if I don't want to be saved just yet. But I've set a deadline, and I'll take my time until then. I feel like I just completed one RPG story of this hero, now time to move on to the next, hahahaha.

I may have lost my dreams, but hey, I've already achieved everything I ever wanted, and I have everything available for me to start another quest. I am more privileged than some almost my age with nothing at all. So why the hell not?

Never used to yearn for the light until my life fell into complete darkness. I've been all coped up and confined for almost 5 months now. Well, not entirely. I still head out a little here and there when I first got discharged in May to get my house and life settled. I've settled down now. With AOSD, Kimmy, my house, and .... nothing. Because I have nothing else. Not a job, not a friend I can decipher my dark thoughts with, not a goal in life to chase anymore. It doesn't stop my tracks though. I still wake to eat, to take my meds on time, watch a couple of dramas, read my favorite mangas, play some games which I will abandoned eventually after a week or so, and work on some random handicrafts or small projects at times. I cook and bake occasionally if my wrists allow extra strenuous work for the day. Otherwise, there really isn't much I do except to sleep and cuddle with Mumu when Kimmy goes to work. Life really lacks the physical communication these days.

I hate the darkness. It makes my mind stray. It makes me think a lot, and look back on the times when I was still able and well, running around doing what I love. And I get home to tell Kimmy about what happened throughout the day, have our dinner, go to bed, repeat. It also makes me think about all the people I met, and lost. All the people that once used to be so close, and now we're either perfect strangers or separated by death. These days, I look forward to waking up and drawing my curtains to let some light into the house because the darkness really overwhelms me. And that's really it. I'll then sit on my sofa, and stare into nothingness until my mind rings something for me to do. Clean the house, catch some shows, sound some horns on Mousehunt, idk... Just.. anything. It's weird how my mind only runs after the sun had set and I feel oddly at peace in the day when the sun is up now. To think I used to indulge in darkness so much. How have life changed.

Guess it's as they always say, the light of day brings hope for tomorrow.

I've lost plenty. And I still do feel hopeless at times, but as long as the sun still shines, it will remind me that I can still live to wake another day. Because what’s gone is gone forever. Forget what you cannot, and focus on what you can.

Let's work on what I can.

I've adopted a kitty!



We actually didn't have any intention to adopt a pet so soon because of my medical condition. We were also unsure if having pets are safe for me then, but somehow we found our way to SPCA and somehow met this poor little bugger hiding in a corner of her cage, which was also hidden away at the lower corner of the adoption area. We were really just there to see kitties since we were around the area, but hey hey, how can you resist a babygirl opening up to you and let you carry her when the caregiver mentioned she is a super anti-social kitty that gives no hoot about anybody else?

So ye, with those alluring blue eyes, I was sold. Kimmy signed the adoption papers without second thoughts, we didn't even know what we were getting ourselves into, LOL. Our place wasn't even ready then, and we didn't have the windows meshed. God, the carpentry and stuff were not even 100% fixed! Arrival of Mumu kinda pushed our lazy ass into finally shifting to our new place and get things moving though. I must say, she is the best decision I've ever made.

I never knew how stagnant life would get after discharge. I am really just playing the waiting game right now. Waiting for AOSD to finally go into remission before I can rebuild my life again. All I could do these days is really just sleep, eat, find entertainment, repeat. Forcing a quick recovery is really just gonna backfire and push me back to where I started. Learnt that the hard way with my recent relapse. Having Mumu around really made life less depressing.

Here's a frightened Mumu on her first day when we brought her home. She was so skinny(Extremely small for a 3 years old :() and her skin condition was so terrible, it was really sore and painful to touch. She kept crying, and wouldn't let us leave her sight for even a second. She would grab onto us or follow us everywhere we go in the house for the first few days.


She also sleeps with us at night, but more independent now that we've gotten her a hammock, hahahaha. She loves her kitty hammock more than our bed.


And here's Mumu, 1 month since we brought her home. All adjusted and cozied up in our space. Skin condition is improving, hope her fur grows out all nice soon, hehe.