It's been a while since we got to head out and go for a random ride. Being all locked up at home means I don't get to see the sunlight and life outside much. I've pretty much detached myself from the reality ever since diagnosis. I'll be honest; it actually gets more and more depressing as days pass, especially when job offers come knocking on my door and all I could do is push them away. I'm in no shape to work for production right now, and highly possibly, anymore. I can also feel my brain slowly going into hiatus with the lack of usage, and causing me to evolve into a full time wood block with nothing but hollowness in my head.

So.... With all the time I have in the world right now, I listed down a few things that I want to do, and plan to do. I kid you not, I have literally all the time in the world right now and living the life anyone could ask for. I really am in no position to complain, unless you look at it from the workaholic's point of view, ovells. Anyway I will touch on that once I get all my thoughts sorted out and have something concrete to share. Right now all these plans are really just.... a one liner waiting to be developed. Hey, good start regardless.

Got my ass to Changi Jewel last Saturday after Korean class. Yes, I finally attended my lesson after 2 months! What a waste of money, tsk. I will not be continuing my lessons with Sejong though.. Because my condition is really unstable, I don't know when will I wake up feeling all sluggish and not able to function for the day. So it's really not worth it to spend hundreds just to miss my lessons. More practical to save those up for investments. It was a good change. I got to finally sit around the huge ass fountain and observe humans while letting my mind do its job. Judgey, judgey, judgey. All dem good and bad. Like, why are they here, what are they doing, what could be their career, and what's on their mind kinda. I've gotten more human lately. Ye, a good change.

So me and Kimmy just sat down there for 3 hours, sipping on our coffee, chatting about people, stuff and pretty much every other possible rubbish. I mean if you know me, I'm one to jump from topics to topics at the weirdest point within a conversation. To an extent where I can actually hold 5 different topics at once with you and get all confused with whatever the fuck we were just talking about. I miss this feeling though. Processing thoughts at the speed of light, getting things moving and drafting mental proposals for future plans. I like planning things. And I feel less like a patient, though the body still fails on me occasionally. It's better than moping around in stagnation like a loser drowning in self-pity, blaming the entire world but himself for his stupid but evitable mistakes.

I'm not one that can tolerate stagnation. I gotta keep moving, moving. I do envy people who can keep up the same lifestyle for years and not want to make a change. It's comfortable I would assume. Even if it's a failed investment of a toxic spill where your journey consist of nothing but a quick, yet steady death. How lucky to have a safe zone, regardless. One thing I've learnt lately, you can't save someone who has no intention of saving themselves. A drug addict dies happy overdosed. I can't save myself if I don't want to be saved just yet. But I've set a deadline, and I'll take my time until then. I feel like I just completed one RPG story of this hero, now time to move on to the next, hahahaha.

I may have lost my dreams, but hey, I've already achieved everything I ever wanted, and I have everything available for me to start another quest. I am more privileged than some almost my age with nothing at all. So why the hell not?

Never used to yearn for the light until my life fell into complete darkness. I've been all coped up and confined for almost 5 months now. Well, not entirely. I still head out a little here and there when I first got discharged in May to get my house and life settled. I've settled down now. With AOSD, Kimmy, my house, and .... nothing. Because I have nothing else. Not a job, not a friend I can decipher my dark thoughts with, not a goal in life to chase anymore. It doesn't stop my tracks though. I still wake to eat, to take my meds on time, watch a couple of dramas, read my favorite mangas, play some games which I will abandoned eventually after a week or so, and work on some random handicrafts or small projects at times. I cook and bake occasionally if my wrists allow extra strenuous work for the day. Otherwise, there really isn't much I do except to sleep and cuddle with Mumu when Kimmy goes to work. Life really lacks the physical communication these days.

I hate the darkness. It makes my mind stray. It makes me think a lot, and look back on the times when I was still able and well, running around doing what I love. And I get home to tell Kimmy about what happened throughout the day, have our dinner, go to bed, repeat. It also makes me think about all the people I met, and lost. All the people that once used to be so close, and now we're either perfect strangers or separated by death. These days, I look forward to waking up and drawing my curtains to let some light into the house because the darkness really overwhelms me. And that's really it. I'll then sit on my sofa, and stare into nothingness until my mind rings something for me to do. Clean the house, catch some shows, sound some horns on Mousehunt, idk... Just.. anything. It's weird how my mind only runs after the sun had set and I feel oddly at peace in the day when the sun is up now. To think I used to indulge in darkness so much. How have life changed.

Guess it's as they always say, the light of day brings hope for tomorrow.

I've lost plenty. And I still do feel hopeless at times, but as long as the sun still shines, it will remind me that I can still live to wake another day. Because what’s gone is gone forever. Forget what you cannot, and focus on what you can.

Let's work on what I can.

I've adopted a kitty!



We actually didn't have any intention to adopt a pet so soon because of my medical condition. We were also unsure if having pets are safe for me then, but somehow we found our way to SPCA and somehow met this poor little bugger hiding in a corner of her cage, which was also hidden away at the lower corner of the adoption area. We were really just there to see kitties since we were around the area, but hey hey, how can you resist a babygirl opening up to you and let you carry her when the caregiver mentioned she is a super anti-social kitty that gives no hoot about anybody else?

So ye, with those alluring blue eyes, I was sold. Kimmy signed the adoption papers without second thoughts, we didn't even know what we were getting ourselves into, LOL. Our place wasn't even ready then, and we didn't have the windows meshed. God, the carpentry and stuff were not even 100% fixed! Arrival of Mumu kinda pushed our lazy ass into finally shifting to our new place and get things moving though. I must say, she is the best decision I've ever made.

I never knew how stagnant life would get after discharge. I am really just playing the waiting game right now. Waiting for AOSD to finally go into remission before I can rebuild my life again. All I could do these days is really just sleep, eat, find entertainment, repeat. Forcing a quick recovery is really just gonna backfire and push me back to where I started. Learnt that the hard way with my recent relapse. Having Mumu around really made life less depressing.

Here's a frightened Mumu on her first day when we brought her home. She was so skinny(Extremely small for a 3 years old :() and her skin condition was so terrible, it was really sore and painful to touch. She kept crying, and wouldn't let us leave her sight for even a second. She would grab onto us or follow us everywhere we go in the house for the first few days.


She also sleeps with us at night, but more independent now that we've gotten her a hammock, hahahaha. She loves her kitty hammock more than our bed.


And here's Mumu, 1 month since we brought her home. All adjusted and cozied up in our space. Skin condition is improving, hope her fur grows out all nice soon, hehe.

We had already pushed back the "move in" date for a month over due to me being hospitalized and all, so to not delay any longer, I held a mini housewarming for my family last weekend before the Hungry Ghost month hits! We were very lucky to be able to try out On & On Diner's latest National Day Mini Buffet Menu, specially crafted to celebrate the nation's birthday for my housewarming! Eternally grateful because ordering with them was fuss free and I really didn't need to worry too much except to think of what I wanna serve my guests for the day, hahahahaha.


If you don't already know, On & On Diners is a halal catering company with a total of 10 years of service experience. They started out in 2009 with an emphasis on catering food that is prepared with quality ingredients and healthier oils. Coupled with traditional local recipes, they whip up unique dishes for special events, giving their customers a different kinda spin.

Food arrived 15 minutes before the event started, nicely packed and warm in a huge thermal bag which you can keep after. We were given personal sets of cutleries as well as serving spoons for each dish! Everything well thought out of. I ordered the amount for 20 pax, and was super worried about leftovers because the food really seemed too much for 20 people. To my surprise, most of the dishes were wiped, and my family were all fed and satisfied!


My favorite was the Braised Beehoon, Buttery Salted Egg Yolk Fish and Lamb Rendang! That's also because I am to avoid seafood for now, so I didn't have much of the rest of the dishes. But I ordered anyway because who doesn't love seafood! It actually took me 3 days to decide what to order because their selections look so good, I am spoilt for choice.

And I really really really wanted the Belachan Fried Rice and Laksa Lemak Goreng but............ :'(


I didn't manage to take photos of the food because they started when I was away...... :'(
Saddest part was the whole tub of Honeydew Sago finished in just a span of 30 - 45 minutes after everyone was done with the main dishes when I was with other guests. I only got a small bowl for myself, sobs. Honeydew Sago is my favorite luuhhhhhhh!
But here's a few shots from my Instagram story before everyone arrived!



It's not a common sight to see minimal leftovers! Trust me when I say they were asking for more, haha. Oh! I also ordered myself a pot of Mala Xiang Guo, hahahaha! Craving satisfied with all dem spices right there. A pity my family are not exactly fans of spicy food, so I've had them all to myself, baha. Kimmy's favorite was the Lamb Rendang, he even dipped his Fried Ebi in the Rendang sauce instead of the given wasabi sauce,

My mouth is watering just at the thought of this amazing spread we had last weekend. Food is a really touchy topic for me right now. Due to my medication, there are a lot of things I have to avoid, and most of it are my favorite food. I get really upset and annoyed whenever I am told something I love is out of the list of things I can eat, sigh. Hence opting for healthier choices and quality ingredient became a part of my lifestyle these days. I am blessed to have On & On Diners catering for my housewarming, because they actually have food that I can eat, mehehehehe.

National Day is almost here, if you are looking to prep up your gatherings, why not try out On & On Diners' exclusive National Day Mini Buffet Menu? They also have other menus for you to chose from!

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Thank you On & On Diners for sponsoring my housewarming party. My guests really loved the food!

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Comes in small little bottles like these that looks like power booster, enough to finish up in just one mouth. I have to admit, the taste is pretty addictive, but do not drink more than one bottle per day, hahaha. And yes, it's best served cold! Reminds me of nice old f&n cherry, nhmmm.....

I tried out 16 bottles myself, drinking a bottle a day every morning when I wake up, after I brush my teeth. Of course the best time to drink it is right before you sleep, because your skin goes through the most regeneration and repair when you are asleep. I did not actually experience any major difference, but I did find my skin becoming more hydrated and firm. There were lesser outbreaks as well, and blemishes were starting to clear. My skin also feels much smoother/clearer than before!


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Got my lashes done at Perky Lash last weekend and I've got to say I love it, so, so much. This isn't my first time getting eyelash extensions but it is my first time trying out laser processed lashes, and also it's been a while since I got to doll up because I was hospitalized and all.. my last lash extensions was during my solemnization back in September, omg. So I was pretty stoked when I went over to get my lash done, mehehehe.


I chose to do Natural Featherlite Lashes so I don't have to put on make-up or anything to pull it off. Angel, my artist of the day gave me C-curls, with a mixture of 10mm ~ 11mm single lash.


I left my lash design entirely to her, letting her decide what suits me better. I was initially super worried because due to my medication side effects, I wasn't sure if I am even suitable to be doing all these treatments so quickly. (Medicinal steroid weakens your immune system, so I have to be really careful not to get bacteria/viral infection until my dose is cut to a safe range.) But all tools used at Perky Lash are sanitised before and after the treatment to ensure the hygiene standards. Their products are also FDA approved, so it's really gentle and safe even for people with sensitive eyes, lucky me!

Angel was extremely gentle the entire time I actually dozed off and had a really good nap. There was no feeling at all it's as if she wasn't doing my lash, and when I woke up, she was almost done, LOL. Angel's really friendly and adorable, hahaha. We had a really good chat after that while she continued on to complete my lashes.

Perky Lash uses Laser Processed Lashes which would last 25% longer than non-laser processed ones. Their lashes are also super duper light, it's practical weightless. It felt like there was nothing at all! Which is also why I was super surprised when I woke up and felt like there was nothing on my lids but Angel said we were almost done, hahaha.

At the end of every session, they used a special bonding serum to seal the glue so that the lashes last longer! 1 week into the extensions, and still looking as good as new!